to be honest… but no where near as scared as i was before.

MY LIFE IS ABOUT TO CHANGE&CHANGE REAL FAST

and it frightens me because im not a big fan of change, but this is for the best.

i had a great conversation with my mother and i literally starting crying in front of her; that was the first time she saw me cry since i got my heart broken a few years ago which felt like the worst thing in the world but things CHANGED..

but mother told me to not worry about everyone else that i have done so much thus far and enough time has been spent and just go do the things i have to do to become successful in this world; and thats what im doing..

but thats why im scared…

i dont wanna leave you guys… im not gonna be able to be around so much anymore.. and its not that you guys NEED me but i feel like you guys are safer if im here..

JUST PLEASE: dont think i dont love you guys anymore, dont think i ditched you guys, dont think i forgot about EVERYTHING 

you know the type of person i am; IM DOING THIS FOR US

because the day i come back… we are ALL gonna live the life we ALWAYS DREAMED of ..

I PROMISE WE’RE GONNA SEE BETTER DAYS